everything & nothing

I live a life of repetition. wake, shower, school, homework, sleep, repeat.
Nothing is happening, and I feel like the only time I'm really awake is during the summer. No cares, no worries, nothing. I wish I could be like that forever. It's hard to remember what I did in those short 3 months last year. A comparison between one of those long, hot days and a bleak, winter schoolday is almost impossible. The differences are endless. I want to be at the beach, to smell the saltwater and feel the sand. I want to complain of having nothing to do, nowhere to go. I want to sleep until the sun goes down. I want everything.

sparks in life.

a while ago, i read something my friend wrote on sparklife, and i thought "why can't i do this too?" (if you havent heard of sparklife, good for you. ive spent hours on there. its a part of SparkNotes) that's exactly what i did. 5 minutes later, i found myself writing about some random and somewhat meaningless topic. It was fun. It was ridiculous. It was worth it. i sent it off to the sparklife people. the lady there liked it (:
check it out on March 5th!

..i would post it here, except i scrolled down to the bottom of the email they sent back to me and it said something ominous about copyrights and stuff. and it's pretty long.

on another note, i'd like to say that my family is awesome. i had my cousins/uncles/etc over today, and we (including my 4 year old cousin) spent around 30 minutes crowded around the kitchen table having contests of who could pull out the roll of toilet paper the fastest. no, not literally. it was an iphone app. basically, you just had to unroll all of the toilet paper by sliding your finger across the screen 100000000 times.

lovely.

good morning world!

1:05 a.m. : I've finished nearly all of my homework for tomorrow aside from physics. Maybe it's a good idea to sleep but I feel too restless. From facebook, I learned that Bones actually started again last week, not in March. The temptation to watch an episode almost overweighs sleep. But I won't do it. I've been so sleep-deprived and sdjfkl lately that Bones can be pushed aside to another day AKA tomorrow.

"good morning world" reminds me of introCS, the "hello world" lab. wow, just typing that made me feel supernerdy. that's okay.

drip drippin' down the drain

So that's officially my favorite song, person, rapper, composer, songwriter, etc. He makes my inner-history geek come out and rejoice. or something along those lines. We watched this video in apush the other day and a whole bunch of people memorized it the next day. Yeah, tj kids are pretty cool. I just really like this rap because it actually means something, and it might help me on my AP test someday.

On another happy note, my birthday wasn't as awful as I anticipated. People called me/texted me. Kathynguyen was awesome and posted a video on my wall...i thought about replying back with a video but i was too lazy. And if Saab is reading this, then thanks too! your post made me laugh (: I also went to the Smithsonian today which was also pretty awesome. I've rediscovered my love for dinosaurs and sea creatures. The Hope diamond was not impressive, especially compared to the crown jewels.

This weekend, I also found a bunch of canned foods in my house to donate to people in Haiti. Yesterday, my family watched 1 straight hour of CNN, all of which was focused on the disaster there. Watching these kinds of things makes me want to become a doctor even more; I really just feel bad for all of those people there without food or help. People are getting limbs amputated while they're awake, and no one should experience something as horrific as that. Orphanages are being robbed of their food, and dead bodies are being dumped, unidentified, into landfills en masse.

procrastination station.

that's where i am right now. six page research paper. why do i even do this to myself. on a happier note, william (the fish) still lives! except he eaten like one flake in the past 8 days. Whenever i wake up or come home from school, i always check to see if he's still alive. my mom thinks that i have a retarded/blind fish, but thats okay. i think ben and i spend at least 5 minutes a day just looking at the aquarium. speaking of ben, he actually figured out who i liked which is really a shocker because he doesnt even know that many juniors. maybe i'm just a little obvious?

big, big, big, big water.

It's the start of a new year, except, I certainly don't feel much newer. Unless you count new stress.



I got a betta for Christmas using my brother's money. I actually did my research about filters, the nitrogen cycle, ammonia levels, and all that seemingly boring stuff. In reality though, it didn't seem that boring to me; the hype of getting a fish seemed overpower it. I spent more time reading about filters than I did homework yesterday. Just don't tell my mother that. So I got a betta from petco, and it sort of seems fine.... except there's a huge problem. He only ate one flake. I think I'm overeacting, but I also think he has some strange kind of fish disease. I really don't want my fish to die. His name is William (:



Along with the fish problem, I've had a song stuck in my head for a few days. It's actually from The Land Before Time, the one where they cross the "big water" and find a baby t-rex. I've had the "Big Water" song stuck in my head for ages ever since I heard it at my cousins house.

Annoying, but catchy: Rockstar by Prima J

caffeine withdrawal.