first cup of starbucks in a month.

i had to wake up early today to go get my blood test for cholesterol & anemia & something i can't remember. showing up at the lab office was like the calm before a storm; i listened to my ipod, tried to read some school stuff, and cracked lame jokes with my brother. but this all ended when a woman wearing scrubs called out my name. i guess i'm fine with needles, just not when i'm the one getting a shot. i remember volunteering to help a doctor give a whole bunch of people blood tests, & i was completely fine with watching. it's a whole different situation when it happens to me. i've had a fear of needles since i was little: once my mom told me that if i moved too much, the needle would break off into my skin and get stuck inside me forever. i think that really scarred me for life. everytime i get a vaccination, or a blood test, that thought goes through my head. this time though was worse than usual. i started hyperventilating before i got in the chair, & then my mom started yelling at me which made it even worse. i think i either got too much or too little oxygen because after a while, my arms got all tingly & my face and legs were numb. the actual shot didn't hurt at all, but it's the idea that makes me panic. i couldn't calm down until 10 minutes afterward. again, my mom's yelling did not help.
i'm like a little kid when it comes to these types of things.

on a happier note, i got to hang out with some of my friends today & that turned out to be fun. it left me in a good mood for the rest of the day since i also had starbucks. tomorrow, i'm going shopping with some more friends & possibly going to a party. i'm not too sure about the party though. it's not like i don't want to see people, it's more like i'm just really lazy and i kind of want to spend my last few days of summer relaxing. then, on sunday, i'm going back to school shopping. then a party that night. just thinking about all of this makes me happy (:

i kind of got re-obsessed with tom felton.

wow. this post is long, boring, & it doesn't even have any pictures!